zombied out

take two call me in the morning
take one three times a day
take one after each meal
take one as needed
take two during the day
take one at bedtime
the list goes on
self medicated
doctor just writes a script
it's supposed to just "go away"
or ease the pain,
or ease the mind,
or ease the hurt,
but all it does is make it worse
your body gets used to the meds
then it just doesn't work anymore
and nobody will hear you crying for help
as you need something more than a pill or two or five
they think a pill can cure it all
when in reality what does help the situation
therapy? God? writing? sleeping?
i don't know, i have tried them all
i have asked for help and am frustrated beyond belief
i just am at a point of explosion because i dont know what else to do
"just calm down and relax" doesn't work anymore
when you aren't the one going thru the mental anguish
then when you do take a pill you can get side effects
which escelate the situation even further worse, then what
puts you in a psych ward at times and your cries still aren't heard
the nightmares are worse as you run and run, but to where, no one knows
if there is an answer that i have not yet found
i'd be happy to take your suggestion
as long as you are not a doctor
because they don't know
they just want their 15 minutes of time billed and paid
when we, the sufferers, are the ones who are paying in a different way
when will it stop?

d.