electrify my brainwaves

brainwaves out of whack
whats a guy 2 do
this way, that way, another way
elecitrical impulses vibrate throughout
how does the mind work
how can it get so bad
to when you can function at your 100%
up, down, side to side
exhausting to be one way then another
mind over matter or matter over mind
careful as one enters into a room
dont know what will happen around you
from the dance floor to the psych ward
one can experience it all
the challenges of the impulses that beat thru u
never knowing who really loves you
or the ones who say they do when they dont
been around the block like jenny
yet here i stand, sit and lie in fear
is God helping, or is the demon tackling God's way
electricity, electrical, electrify my brainwaives
am i going insane, have i already landed that plane
physical, mental, emotional all going down hill
how am i to rise above these fallen ashes to rebuke the past
and let the present be free of illnesses and loneliness
careful not to let anyone too close or else i will be hurt
or they will hurt me
not too careful to let my words of my verbage release those demons
electrify my brainwaves
thats what it feels like
how does the brain work?
i am no doctor but i do know when something isn't right
and it's not psycho-environmentally making myself this way
deterioriation has overcame my body, mind but my soul is alive
and that is something that keeps the homefires burning
to just try to make it another day

d.