i have lived many places in my life so far
i have lived from one coast to another
i have traveled from midwest to the far west
i have met plenty of people in my journey
i have enjoyed the company of a great lover
i have befriended many across the state lines
i have tempted many into their own sins and mine
i have missed out on the youth of my son back home
i have hopped around so many jobs wherever i landed
i have lost myself in the quest to find myself
now i ask myself, was i even on the right path
to not even know what was happenening behind me
i never even knew that it was taking place
it was all about me, in parenting and love
never giving my 100% to anyone but myself
didn't know that i was missing out on so much
even though i was on the great escape journey of life
the bottom line was that my family was crashing down
learning now what i didn't know then it places me in a sad place
why didn't God bring me back and keep me here to build a bridge
instead of burning it as i have done all my life with everyone and everywhere
when i was out having a blast and tryin to find that "love" i never found
my son was falling apart, turning into an angered monster that he has become
i never stopped loving him from day one but leaving him the first time was hard
then it happened again and again and again...
now i am here and fighting for his future
stuck in a place that hurts so bad
you dont know hurt until you face the demons you have created
face to face
the pain
the hurt
the disappointment
the anger
all building this bomb that is dropped all at once
BAMM!
was it all worth it
d.
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