fight 4 the bright light

u want to break me down
u want to get me back
u want to take me down
u want to get to me
u want to see me cry
u want to anger me
u want to see me suffer

doubt it

i am going to bust up in here
show you and every one else
that i can move the highest mountains and
part the deepest seas that are in front of me
you can try to break me but i wont let you win
i am going to fight for the bright light
to see the heavens above to part the clouds
revealing the brightest light to shine down on me
opening up new doors for the future i have yet to experience
the energies above will show you the way out of your misery
to bring your own brightness to your life when you are ready
no more pain you will cause, no more stress you will create
it's time you take a pause, it's enough on your own plate
i am going to fight for the bright light
to show me the goodness in my heart and let others feel the warmth
that lies deep within me and you know exists but you wont let it
you will turn your pain into something more productive in the future
i will be here waiting for you as i will never and have never gave up on you
you want me to accept you for who you are as you have accept me for me
it doesn't quite work that way when you are in the shoes that you wear
i am going to fight for the bright light
allowing me to finally find the hope of betterment coming each day
when i am taken from this world, you will still see my light shine bright
for which i fought for.

d.

was it all worth it

i have lived many places in my life so far
i have lived from one coast to another
i have traveled from midwest to the far west
i have met plenty of people in my journey
i have enjoyed the company of a great lover
i have befriended many across the state lines
i have tempted many into their own sins and mine
i have missed out on the youth of my son back home
i have hopped around so many jobs wherever i landed
i have lost myself in the quest to find myself

now i ask myself, was i even on the right path
to not even know what was happenening behind me
i never even knew that it was taking place
it was all about me, in parenting and love
never giving my 100% to anyone but myself
didn't know that i was missing out on so much
even though i was on the great escape journey of life
the bottom line was that my family was crashing down
learning now what i didn't know then it places me in a sad place
why didn't God bring me back and keep me here to build a bridge
instead of burning it as i have done all my life with everyone and everywhere
when i was out having a blast and tryin to find that "love" i never found
my son was falling apart, turning into an angered monster that he has become
i never stopped loving him from day one but leaving him the first time was hard
then it happened again and again and again...
now i am here and fighting for his future
stuck in a place that hurts so bad
you dont know hurt until you face the demons you have created
face to face
the pain
the hurt
the disappointment
the anger
all building this bomb that is dropped all at once

BAMM!

was it all worth it

d.

nothing but doug

to all you haters who didn't think i could make it to this point in my life
to all you players who tried to get into my pants rather my heart
to all you lovers who did enter my heart but left me when i needed you
to all you family who disappeared when i needed you the most
it's just nothing but doug

to all the people out there who i hurt - unintentionally
to all the friends out there i never hear from - i miss you
to all the ex-coworkers out there i left high and dry - i hope you well
to all the light out there that i thrive on but only fill with darkness
it's just nothing but doug

to all you takers who took all you could from me over the years
to all you givers who gave all that you did and i never thanked you
to all you spirits who have passed to the other side, please guide me
to all you people who i have spoke to online and then vanished, sorry
it's just nothing but doug

i am a mid-mid-life point in my life where i am reflecting
looking back, standing still, moving forward
i have asked for all the forgiveness from everyone out there
you must not keep it your your heart and soul to dislike me
i want your trust, loyalty, respect back somehow, someway
nobody is perfect in this chaotic world, we all make mistakes
some learn from them, some takes longer than others
nobody knows what our individual stresses are in our lives
just know that what you have seen before, is not who i really am
i just am being nothing but doug

d.

house arrest frustration

isolated here out in smalltown usa
lost without my car, no job, no money
no friends, no tv, no interaction
frustrated with the government's waiting
on my settlement case which will resolve itself
in september or october and pray winnings then come
it's so quiet in my home, i sleep way too much
my daily highlight is going to check mail at post office
then fixing me something to eat, then online rest of time
my sleep habits are off the charts up all night
then sleeping all day, then repeat the next day
my freedom right now is stripped from me
as i can't go anywhere since my car is down
gotta fix brakes, renew plates and insurance due soon
frustrated because i dont want to lose my apartment
if not funds are available in October, not again, grr
once my settlment clears with both disability and unemployment
i can rest assured i will be better and can breathe again
just the "not knowing" and "waiting period" is making me insane
i feel like i am on house arrest just without the ankle bracelet
therapy soon again, more talk about how to better my coping skills
this isn't a poem, this is just me venting again
at least i have internet to keep me busy with chat, blogging and more
ok done for now...

d.

rain

standing out in the meadows
twirling around and around
looking up to the sky
waiting for that moment
when the drop hits me
and i feel the rain

standing out on the sidewalk
walking home from somewhere
feeling the drops upon my head
loving the smell of the wetness
causing me to be drenched
and i feel the rain

something we taken for granted
a simple thing such as that
it could help you to get out
stand in the middle of nowhere
to feel that feeling as it pours
and i feel the rain

as the moisture pours down on us
i continue to twirl and twirl
washing away the darkness as well
along with the day that is behind me
would love for you to join me
so we can feel the rain

d.

the same sky

ever since i was a lot younger than i am now
always knew that i was different than the rest
never knowing where i would end up, but who does
one thing always remained the same, it was you
i know you are out there, somewhere under the same sky

we are both trying to get our lives together in this world
you could be right now writing a blog about me yet dont know it
i am writing everyday, putting the energy out there for you to find me
we co-exist in this planet in different places yet breathe same air
i know you are out there, somewhere under the same sky

you go through your day wishing you had someone special
i react by feeling what you are saying but am lost without you
wishing it was an easy path to find you but get lost along the way
i have been all over the place, always so busy looking i didnt see you
i know you are out there, somewhere under the same sky

when fate allows us to cross paths we will know it and feel it
we can not just force things to happen, time wil piece us together
we both look up at the same moon each time knowing you are standing under it too
we dont know what life has in store for us until we meet but i will not give up
i know you are out there, somewhere under the same sky

this sky we look at every night gives us hope and restores our faith
that one day we will finally be together knowing it was meant to be
as we deserve the right to be loved and love each other in this life
dont give up, i feel you are close just follow your path and you will see me
i know you are out there, somewhere under the same sky

d.

the city of angels

the second biggest city in the united states
los angeles
i have been blessed to have lived there
not once, twice but three times
i did not fight to make it work there
i have been drawn to los angeles for a reason
i miss los angeles, the city of angels
i hope to return someday because i have a calling
something is awaiting for me out there
i miss the beach, i miss my friends, i miss the nightlife
i miss the opportunities, i miss the culture, i miss the energy
i messed up the last three times i went there
not in right state of mind or focused on the main prize
my talents and passion desires me to return again
somehow, someway, someday, i will return
so that i can achieve some goals that i never achieved
the city is calling me, the spirit within says i belong there
the struggles of the previous lives i lived there were hard
i miss the city of angels, i have a purpose, a meaning, a gift
once i get what i need to do taken care of here, i will return
i feel it, it's my life, i deserve to go there with no roadblocks
before i had relationships and financial woes, but wont let it block me again
i dont know when i can make this happen, but in time i will lie my head down there
because i feel it, why else be drawn there three times, unsuccessfully
once i get my mind, body and soul all aligned, i want to feel the city around me
make a difference in others lives and make my name known, leave my mark
i left many times before for personal reasons as well related to family issues
yet i have felt i have chosen so many wrong paths in my life
my brainwaves cause and have caused me to make the wrong decisions
when i know in my heart from a kid i wanted to be there to chase a dream
no man, woman or child should get in the way of your destiny or passion
i know what i want to do as therapy is breaking down my walls and no more running
i miss you LA, i'll be home someday.

d.

veritical skyscraper becoming horizontal

it takes years to build a skyscraper
only minutes to make it fall to the ground
in our own lives we build walls up around us
brick by brick, beam by beam
to prevent anyone to see who we really are
when we do not know who and what we are ourselves
facades are thrown up to give a false prescence
some can see through it all, but not everyone
over time the bricks can start to fall from the top
in time all the beams, bricks and boards are gone
we are then left standing there naked to the world
revealing what has been hiding there within for so long
its is so hard and can be very frightening to be revealing
after so much time trying to cover our naked bodies
our soul can be tucked in so deeply
yet a smile makes it look like its all good
now that my own bricks are falling down
day by day, month by month, time keeps on ticking
one day my veritical skyscraper i built will become horizontal
then you can see me for who i am, really, behind the pain and fears
no more running, no more hiding, no more fears, i must jump the hurdles
fear can waste away at your soul and then it's years passed, still pained
face the fears, conquer your guilt, release the stress built up inside
to walk high and tall to show the world what God meant you to be in the end

d.

the right place at the right time

the busy streets, people all over the place
the hussle and bussle of daily living
we are forever so busy with our lives
that we never know what could be right in front of us
a stranger may smile at you
a stranger may bump into you
you future relationship could be right out there
i know you are out there, i am waiting to be found
i wanna be at the right place at the right time

life goes by so fast and time keeps on ticking
we only get one chance in this life time, they say
we all have the right to love and be loved in return
no matter who you are, where you are, what you believe in
we all deserve a chance at real love, does it exist
you must have faith in yourself and the energies above
i know you are out there, are you waiting for me as well
i wanna be at the right place at the right time

sometimes we end up in dead end jobs that take us nowhere
as well as relationships that are just comfort zones
instead of meaningful true love and passion for one another
we all meet people in our lives, call them friends
but look at it they are more associates than anything
but for you i am willing to go the extra mile to find you
i wanna be at the right place at the right time

now it's up to fate to put me in
the right place at the right time

d.

the prisoner & the prince

below the city streets lies a form of life
where one is isolated from the world above
the people that are located down there
are ones who are being held back from life
they are prisoners of their own mind and heart
afraid to come forth for who they really are
being held against their will to releases the shackles
of the pain, depression, misery and hopelessness
they do not know how to break free from this life
and to find their way up to the light up above
to find love, to find him, to find life

above in the light lies many fields of open grass and fields
a world of happiness and joy where he exists
yet he has no idea that under his world is another one
he goes on with his busy day as the prisoner prays for him
himself is confused because he knows he is out there
but to his dismay does not know how to find him
he is a prince, a beauty, a wonderment of joy
he doesn't think he is this figment of his reality
only if he looked deep inside, he'd fine a way to find him

the prisoner knows he must fight to get the prince
he tries everything, he became a prisoner for a reason
now must work harder than ever to reclaim the right to love
and be loved in return by the beauty from up above
the shackles will be unlocked and he will be able to go find him
with all his will and might, he rips from those shackles
runs through the streets looking for any glimpse of the light above
knowing that his prince is right up above from him

the prince feels it in his heart that he is near
he can hear him screaming and feel his heartbeat
he cries out to him and he is scrambling to find his way up
running through the fields into the forest he sees a figure
in the far distance, afraid of what it may be, he goes further
the prisoner has found a ladder and had climbed up into the forest
he looks around the forest and see the light he had dreamt of
he knows it's him, he sees the darkness ahead, is it him, could it be

as they both walk faster to each other, the darkness and light colide
they see each other for the first time, reborn, again
the smile from the prince causes the prisoner to feel relief
he had forgiven him for all the sins that took him to inprisonment
he was determiend to do whatever it took to find him, and he did
they ran into each other's arms, they were crying because they never knew
that they would ever see each other again yet be together again
the prisoner was no longer a prisoner anymore, he was now his prince

they held hands, walked away from the dark forest into the light
where the energy was so amazing that all was forgiven for why he was a prisoner
they vanished into the light to a place where they never thought they'd go

it was called happiness
finally

What If?

What if...
someone who is in touch with the Lord
someone who has a higher connection
comes to you and
tells you that someone you love dearly
doesn't have much time left on earth
not really this minute, but soon
this person will be gone
i dont want this person gone yet
we've just begun the bond we never had
for all the years in our lives
the spirituality is strong who told me this
they are connected for real soul to soul with God
they knew things about someone in my life
told me to spend as much time with this person
because there isn't much time left for this person
what if this is true, how can I doubt someone like that
how do I react now except for fear and the unknown
how could someone really know
yet this person knew stuff about me
and they are a complete stranger miles away
yet there is a deep connection by a chance encounter
i know who they are talking about
now i am scared, i dont want this person to be gone
even though they want to be gone
what if...
...it's true

d.

The Tears That Fall

Unknowning what is to come is scary
Always peeking around the corner
Not sure who may be standing there
Afraid of the insecurities of the past

Looking behind you and closing the door
Puting a lock on those old emotions
Relieving your soul of the way you were
Running from the way you thought it was

The tears that fall
they drip away the fear
The tears that fall
they help it seem so clear
The tears that fall
they can't be seen in a mirror

Pursuing yet another chance at the game
How many players do I have to play to win
Losing every time can put your downward
Until you get a good hand of chance

Keep walking forward I tell myself
Never looking back ever again
Approaching a new face I see near me
Holding their hands out to me

The tears that fall
you wipe away with your soul
The tears that fall
you kiss away with your lips
The tears that fall
you dry up with your caress

Now this person could come forth
Why should I be insecure anymore
Letting my faith rise again more
Praying it will not just be a dream

No more tears I shall cry
No more tears I shall shed
No more tears I shall feel
Yet I can't control the stream these days
but they are the tears that fall

Who Said...

who said who we can be
who said what we can wear
who said where we can live
who said why does it hurt
who said when we die
who said who we can love
who said what we can do
who said where we can go
who said why there is pain
who said who we choose to love
who said what we want in life
who said where we can work
who said why we are here
who said when our time is up
who said who we really are
who said what life is about
who said where life begins
who said why we have sadness
who said when we it's over
who said who is your almighty God
who said what we are supposed to believe
who said where we belong
who said why there are are choices
who said when it's not fair
who said who is responsible
who said what the meaning of life is
who said where our paths will take us
who said why our heart bleeds in pain
who said when we would have the answers
who made these rules
I'd like to meet them

d.

If U Ever, Again

Drifting apart as I pull you close
Only to hold you one last time
Falling down like pedals of a rose
Knowing someday I will be fine

Watching you leave out the door
Tears begin to stream down my face
One by one the fall onto the floor
Without you I feel so out of place

if you ever fall in love, if you ever fall in love
Remember I am the one who loved you first
If you ever fall in love, if you ever fall in love
Remember I am the one who quenched your thirst
If you ever

Wondering whose arms you will run to
You made me feel the highest of highs
I loved you so, didnt you even have a clue
Realizing I will be the only one who cries

Now you are gone and I am all alone
Surviving each passing day on my own
I will reclaim my strength on my throne
As I enter the world of the unknown

faded memories holding on to

faded from white to black
the memories are all around me
everyday i am now reminded of a time
a time when you and I were happier
a time when you and I were new
a time when you and I were alive
i'd like to be anywhere but here
somewhere where you are
to have another chance
to hold you
to see you
to smell you
to feel you
and let you see what you are missing
i know you have moved on
i know you are happy now
but what if i can bring it all back
relieve it all over again in a different light
to see me in a way you've never seen me
i had no idea these new surroundings would hurt
i have stepped in places where we were once before
and immediate flashes of you and those times around me
why does it still hurt after so long
why must i continue to harbor this pain
the energy i get from these memories
inspires me to continue forward
making everyday a new and brighter day
wondering if one day down the road
you will be in my arms again
i'd be anywhere but here right now
to be with you
once again
forgiveness and realization of the realities of the time
should remind you, we were good together
maybe someday, somewhere, somehow...
it was meant to be, again.

d.

existing or living

silence. i hear nothing.
vision. i see nothing.
heart. i feel nothing.
i am at a point in my path where i have no sense of direction.
i don't know which way my life is going to go.
i don't know where i belong.
i feel as if I have been put in a test to pass or fail.
should i pass?
should i fail?
i feel as if i have nothing to live for.
yet i am a talented, smart, articulate man
my mind has been playing awful mental games with me
i cry at a drop of a dime, for no reason, or is there
i just feel empty, confined to a constant mistake pattern.
i have no desires to go into a new direction.
i am exhausted from the struggles and self hatred that has risen again.
i lost my sense of direction and ended up somewhere but do i belong here?
why have i let the darkness back in to cover up the light that once shined?
all that i am living for right now i have yet to unravel.
i try to look for the God within and ask him for guidance
i dont know how to receive that spirit within me
i want to take the mental issues and get them leveled out
because right now I am just existing, instead of living.

d.

Re-Invention

do you believe that life hands you lessons?
is it possible to be reinvented once or twice
can it be true that we do become better with time
will others forgive you and give you another chance
now that you are in a better mind and can see clearer
we shed layers of negativity to reveal the possibility
of a better existence as the newly positive soul we are
will you forgive me
will you accept me now
will you have love for me
i accept responsibility for the past
i look forward to the future now
knowing you have forgiven me
but i have reinvented myself so many times
i got my pride
i got nothing to hide
i know i have tried
now it's your turn
my light is about to burn
no more my stomach will churn
as i have let go of the past
trying to open up the vessell for light
do you know what i am talking about
do you know who i am now
it's about reinvention
wanna know me now
then open those arms
wrap them around me
hold me
love me
like me
be with me
inside forever

d.

quote from a friend

"There will always be unknown. You must face it. Every harsh thing thrown at you just shows how strong you are since you overcome them. Now is the time to be even more adament. Don't give up because people depend on you. Slap yourself in the face, lace up your boots and get ready or the long journey ahead. Stop dwelling in the dark and down. Keep your head up and keep reaching for the stars. Just be careful not to step on people anymore on your way up there."

This is a quote from someone VERY special to me, one of the most special people I've ever been honored to know and I miss this person SO much and would do anything to see them again.

Thanks!

d

believe in your faith

in our times of need and even when we are grateful
we should look up and be thankful for those who are watching
some believe in angels, some believe in ghosts
most believe in a "God" of their own
we must find the heart of the matter and believe in something
it's called "faith"
whatever it is that you believe in
keep believing in it
your soul is on fire and soars when you believe
then when times are rough and you have lost that faith
you must find a way to find that faith again
it can be a hard battle ahead yet you must believe in it
ask your God to guide you, to comfort you, to love you
to forgive you, to redeem you, to surface within your soul
know that there is something, someone, some being out there
loving you and watching over you
even if you dont believe, if you start to believe, you will feel it
have i felt it yet, no, but i want to feel it and want to believe in something
somehow, someway, i must find my own faith yet asking others to find theirs
don't give up, never give in, dont let doubt take over,
never keep negativity around yet i know how hard it is not too
see yourself happy, see yourself smiling, see yourself in the light
because if you see it, then it can come forth and you will then believe
and have faith

d.

electrify my brainwaves

brainwaves out of whack
whats a guy 2 do
this way, that way, another way
elecitrical impulses vibrate throughout
how does the mind work
how can it get so bad
to when you can function at your 100%
up, down, side to side
exhausting to be one way then another
mind over matter or matter over mind
careful as one enters into a room
dont know what will happen around you
from the dance floor to the psych ward
one can experience it all
the challenges of the impulses that beat thru u
never knowing who really loves you
or the ones who say they do when they dont
been around the block like jenny
yet here i stand, sit and lie in fear
is God helping, or is the demon tackling God's way
electricity, electrical, electrify my brainwaives
am i going insane, have i already landed that plane
physical, mental, emotional all going down hill
how am i to rise above these fallen ashes to rebuke the past
and let the present be free of illnesses and loneliness
careful not to let anyone too close or else i will be hurt
or they will hurt me
not too careful to let my words of my verbage release those demons
electrify my brainwaves
thats what it feels like
how does the brain work?
i am no doctor but i do know when something isn't right
and it's not psycho-environmentally making myself this way
deterioriation has overcame my body, mind but my soul is alive
and that is something that keeps the homefires burning
to just try to make it another day

d.

fear amongst me

i sit here all alone
all away from a single soul
i realize today just that
i moved so far out that my fears have taken over
i am losing my grip on reality
i am having really bad anxiety, higher than ever
another appointment with the good ole' doc in the AM
i dont know what this all is about
i dont know if the meds are screwing me up worse
or i just am falling apart right in front of my eyes
i am alone, i am single, i am isolated
i am scared, i am fearful, i am lost
what once used to mean the world to me
no longer matters at all, at the least or most
today i saw my son for first time in a few weeks
it was so hard as he doesn't want anything to do with me right now
"baby steps" i was told - when i did nothing to the kid
i have loved him so much from day one
and tried to do my own best
and now i sit here all alone out in country
so far away from reality that i am now scared
for my future, my personality, for my life
as the unknown future lies ahead of me and it scares me
cause i am not in the mental capacity that i once was in
not sure why so but here i am, afraid and have no one to embrace me
i isolated all my past friends, afraid of any new people in my life
a stranger, a friend, a partner, a nobody, or just somebody
luckily my very ill mother is there, but she's not here
i look around at my nice apartment that i loved now afraid to be here
dont know what's going on; but do know that i don't understand
i let God in and it didn't get better, did I fail him already?
the darkness is all around and fear is amongst me

d.

today was the day

2day was the hearing
waited 2 years for it
came and gone
lawyer and judge said favorable
will know more in a month or so
once i win and receive money
things will be lifted a lot
while i work on myself to get better
but can't spend money i dont have until
once it's in my bank i can breathe
and focus on a new path
but until then, it's uncertainity
but looks good
it's a temporary settlement
will fill up bank account
help me get my medicines, therapy and medical needs
and if things get worse
i can reapply and go for full throttle
but will do my best to find something less
stressful and less skilled
tired, drained, exhausted.
bye

d.

pass the tears

the tears just started flowing today
i dont know why, nothing brought it on
that i can think of off hand
the tears just came down my cheek
an overwhelming sense of emotion
maybe for the reasons yet to know why
or the stress i have about the worries i have
just sitting there and crying for no reason
it was not beneficial yet it was not bad
i am a man and not too proud to cry
even though i am trying to find my faith and be strong
the tears kept coming
i can tell you they were not happy tears
the anxiety has yet to disappear
even though it was rebuked in God's name
i still take my meds daily
but even a med can't take this away
i try to remain calm, positive and smile
but inside i am crying and now literally the tears are running
down my cheek, and dripping onto the floor
i look around and worry all i have gained
will be taken away
i know i am hard on myself
but with the current circumstances
i dont know what to think, believe or have faith in
is there a cure for this madness within
but please pass the tears on to someone else
cause i am all cried out

d.

what 2 believe

how are you supposed to know what to believe in
regarding faith, religion, spirituality
we are force fed so many different opinions
views, points of view, stories, books, tv channels
but what are we supposed to know is the truth
i am so confused on what to believe anymore
i want to have faith in something
but i dont know what to believe in anymore
someone very recent had me be "reborn"
but then the doubts set in
is that my mental illness that was apparently rebuked
or am i supposed to tie the red string on and find the light
keeping the darkness at bay to avoid having those issues
what church, if i decide to go to one, do i step into for the first time
faith - what am i to have faith in anymore
i have so many doubts now as i dont know what to believe in
as one person tells me one thing
then another tells me the total opposite
and inside i feel "something" yet i dont know what it is
and where to put my faith and soul in now
confused as i need something to help me that is "out there"
the energy up above is what i need, not the darkness below
we are grown up being told what to believe by our families
well i am am a grown up and i want to believe
but i dont know what to believe in
at least for the moment
i need my faith, restored.

d.

zombied out

take two call me in the morning
take one three times a day
take one after each meal
take one as needed
take two during the day
take one at bedtime
the list goes on
self medicated
doctor just writes a script
it's supposed to just "go away"
or ease the pain,
or ease the mind,
or ease the hurt,
but all it does is make it worse
your body gets used to the meds
then it just doesn't work anymore
and nobody will hear you crying for help
as you need something more than a pill or two or five
they think a pill can cure it all
when in reality what does help the situation
therapy? God? writing? sleeping?
i don't know, i have tried them all
i have asked for help and am frustrated beyond belief
i just am at a point of explosion because i dont know what else to do
"just calm down and relax" doesn't work anymore
when you aren't the one going thru the mental anguish
then when you do take a pill you can get side effects
which escelate the situation even further worse, then what
puts you in a psych ward at times and your cries still aren't heard
the nightmares are worse as you run and run, but to where, no one knows
if there is an answer that i have not yet found
i'd be happy to take your suggestion
as long as you are not a doctor
because they don't know
they just want their 15 minutes of time billed and paid
when we, the sufferers, are the ones who are paying in a different way
when will it stop?

d.

omfrickingosh

seriously?
what is the deal?
why must this continue?
when will this darkness stop?
where am i going to end up now?
who is this that keeps screwing with my brain?

i don't want you around me no more
i don't want you lingering inside
i don't want you screwing up my future
i don't want you hurting my chances
i don't want you period

can a pill make you go away?
will therapy take you away?
why must you reside in me every other day?
even with bring God into my life you rose again today
and brought me nothing but anxiety
fearing as i was driving home
afraid of the unknown
i dont know how to cope or control you
my mood seems to be doing better
but my heart races
my mind starts wandering
i get scared immediately
then off i go back to my safety zone
"home"
where i feel the safest and more secure

leave me alone
get the f**k out of here
and stay away
somehow, someway, you gotta go
you are not wanted here
i hate you

if you mess me up more
i dont know what will happen
so leave now why you have your chance
please

d.

learn 2 crawl

always trying to go further than allowed
we can't always do that in our lives
sometimes we must slow down
in order to get things aligned correctly
we gotta learn 2 crawl before we can walk away
running from something, maybe our truths
we are always looking for someone else 2 blame
trying to avoid the truth right in front of our face
we gotta learn 2 crawl before we can run away
you may think you are at your hope's end
when you want to take your own life
but always remember that it's a selfish way out
we gotta learn 2 crawl before we can live, officially
dont give up on a dream just because of a roadblock
we can't walk away from something until we learn 2 crawl
even if you think you dont have the strength, you do
it's inside you to get up and walk but you gotta learn 2 crawl first
if someone hurts you, dont spite them with revenge
they too have to learn 2 crawl so they can walk away too
so remember you are not alone in this world
just think about this that before you want to walk way
you gotta learn 2 crawl
to exit the darkness
and see the light


d.