this rollercoaster is wearing me out this week
i must regain control of some sort of faith
take charge within to make myself and remind myself
that everything will work out in two weeks with my hearing
God knows I have tried and done so well this last year
trying to put life back together and get the help i need
i am failing right now yes, i am crying every night
my inbalances are out of whack and have destroyed every friendship i have
no body understands me as i dont understand myself
unless you are inside my brain at this moment you can't comprehend it all
but as i sit here more relaxed for the moment, who knows how long that will last
i have to have faith, hope and prayer on my side
i bought a bible today to find some faith and path to follow
as i pray that i am taken to this hearing and the judge hears and sees my soul
grants me the winning within her decision making time
and i can then focus on medically, physically and mentally getting on track
but without that, i am afraid the end result of what would happen to me
will be horrid, so please God, if you are listening, save me, help me
and look after my son as well during both of our transformations
amen
d.
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