faith

ok so my brain is confused
there's some inbalance up in there
like an elevator going up and down
repeatedly, over and over, everyday
you think my writings are exhausting
trying having the demons within
i have asked someone special for help
he directed me to God and to find my faith
i am going to start going to church
to find that peace within
and be amongst good people
to accept me and just be social
i am going to try to think as positive as i can
about the upcoming medical disability hearing
because my fears and the demons are taking over
and that can alter the outcome
i want to find faith in something
i want to find faith in myself
i want to find trust in someone
i want to find trust in myself
God has a plan for every one of us
I dont understand when people say that
especially when bad things happen to good people
I have a lot of questions, but no answers
I am reaching out with my arms wide open
asking for help
and yeah with some therapy and medication
i can soothe the anguish i suffer from today
but overall i want some comfort to know
that i am sane and okay deep down inside
and have that faith
to have faith.

d.