Tears and Pain

I sit alone at night
Lying in my bed
Looking out my window
Yearning for something
Even for someone

My pillow is my best friend
It sees me at my worst
It feels the wetness of my tears
It feels the force of the pain

Tears and pain
Cheers and rain
Fears and sane
I am hurting now

I toss and turn
Waking up a lot
Seeing no one around
Again just alone

My heart has been yanked out
Bleeding to death into loneliness
Falling further away from reality
Realizing I am not going anywhere

Tears and pain
that is what I feel now
I cant stop crying
I cant stop dying
I cant stop lying
With these tears and pain

I pull back the curtains
I know it is not certain
But I know there is a ray of light
Awaiting me out there

(circa 10/05)