Frozen Stiff

I have so much anger inside
My body has been violated
The mind and heart collide
My eyes have been dilated

You try to touch me, I pause
I clench to the thought of it
Afraid that you will hurt me
You and I just aint going to fit

You see I am not like others
I am afraid of something deeper
Its like my body is paralyzed from touch
Afraid I am frozen

My mind
My body
My soul
All are frozen stiff
Afraid of you
Afraid of me
When will the leave me
Where will I be when you come

No one else can hurt me again
If I dont let them touch me
Am I making up excuses to avoid it all
The one thing I am supposed to enjoy
I run from the moment someone is near

Damn you for raping my mind
Damn you for raping my soul
Damn you for raping my body
You took away my innocents back then
It continues to haunt me fifteen years later
Until I can thaw out, I am still frozen stiff

(circa 2006)