Women

Women.
Women are beautiful.
Women are flirtatious.
Women are bitches.
Women can be mild, but mostly hot.
Even fire.
Women seem to bitch.
Women are too needy.
Women get on your back too much.
Women are drama.
Women take things too far.
Women oh women.
Women want more than you can give.
Women are more than they know.
Women lost trust so easy so fast.
Women are loving and caring
yet fierce and competitive.
Women make good friends,
but not more than that
(in my book)
I have been married to a woman.
I have even dated a woman.
I have had a "womancrush"
Did I learn a lesson?
Is it just not meant to be.
Do I want to deal with all the baggage
that comes with a woman?
But then again...
what a man brings is ten times worse.
As I have experienced both.
I'd rather be alone.

Out of Sight, Out of Mind

friends have come and gone
over the years
some i have kept for decades
others have vanished over time
even some have passed away
but when you are friends with someone
and you vanish yourself
people tend to forget about you
and never reach out
even when you do
i miss my friends
i really do
from Houston to Hollywood
and back home here in the cornfield state
i think of all of you often
some i have hurt
and others have hurt me
but i forgive you
will you forgive me
can you reach out to me
and stay in contact with me more
if you read this
and can realize that i am not perfect
but i am a good soul
but bottom line is that
when you are out of sight
you are also out of mind...

miss you all

d.

The Light House

he was walking through the woods
he was lost not sure where he was going
he saw a light up ahead
he walked closer to the light
it was a light house he never knew existed
he came across the path that led up to it
he climbed the stairs that swirled around it
he came to the top of the stairs
it was amazing
it was the most beautiful vision he had
he saw the most beauty ever imagined
he opened up the door that he came upon
he walked inside and looked out over the ocean
he said to himself that there has to be a God
in order to know there is someone very unique
and very special to accept him for him
and have the patience to love him
until he is ready.
He knows he is out there.
He's waiting for him.
In the distance he sees a shadow
He screams to the image below
He races downstairs and over the bridge
to see this glowing soul in front him
there he was
standing in front of him
this human he's been searching for all his life
as the image got closer
he got a closer look
and he vanished
then all of a sudden he woke up
in his own bed
realized it was a dream
but he knows he is out there
waiting
yearning
and when I am ready, I will be there too.

Slowly Breaking Down (My Body)

this skin that holds my bones
contains feelings and emotions
the muscles within this body
ache, hurt, and are discomforted
daily, hourly
every minute
the fatigue that plagues my body
takes me so far down
to a weak moment
where i can't function
this heart that beats within me
has been battled
torn
and broken
yet it still beats
as it wont give up
but the body is still
slowly breaking down
looking ahead i see no difference
as i have felt this way inside
for years now
i may be young
but oh do i feel old
people tend to be selfish and think of them
not realizing what other people are going through
which is beyond themselves and yet it hurts
slowly breaking down
my body
you only get one body
no exercise works
only makes it worse as i feel today
i am exhausted all the time
i have battled the mental demons for so long
but now the physical being is crying for help
the simple things another may do
is so very hard for me
as my body is slowly breaking down

simplicity of beauty and nature

walking the walk
that i always walk
listening to the music
rhythms are bumping
my heart is racing
the mind tends to wander
and i visualize the peace around
when we aren't even looking for it
the simple things in life are taken for granted
yet they are just right there
if you just look for them
walking the paths when i do
puts my mind and soul at peace
yet helping my body get to where i want it
it's my time for me
to rid myself of the negativity that burdens me
to see the light
to share the light
to be the light
the beauty of nature
can be a healing experience
the quietness
the calmness
it's simple

d.

Torn Hearts Heal Slow

when you love
you should love unconditionally
never judge someone
for something they can't do
for someone they can't be
for somewhere they aren't
love takes time
the body needs to heal
which takes time as well
but not given a chance to see
that hurts more than cheating
that hurts more than stealing
that hurts more than reality
when you love
you should love forever
never forget how much you care
it hurts to know that i began to love
then when i couldn't make love
they fell out of love
and put me to the side
in the friend category
even when i wanted so much more
never given a chance
yes i have a lot going on
and i hurt you at the end
but you got me back, didn't ya
you taught me a lesson
a lesson to keep my walls up forever
and love myself more
as i will remain alone for infinity
it's all good as i look forward
i hope to see something bright ahead
not the darkness that overcame me lately
the devil fell off the shoulder
the angel is guiding me again
stronger
faster
and i will be back on path
for which i was lost
but now i have found the light
once again

d.

I Can't Cry

fluids take up our entire body
for many years my fluids came out
into the form of tears
what have i become
when i can't stream a tear
down my cheek and onto my pillow
right now i am sad
i am not mad or glad
just sad
and i just can't seem to crack
as i lie here on my back
looking up into the sky
out my window
wishing upon a star
i learned the truth tonight
something i have always believed
but now after being rejected
by someone so special
because i couldn't be 100% man
now i will continue on my path
of three years of asexuality
as i will never have
what i never had
in the first place
in the mean time
i need to feel something
i am numb
i am emotionless
i am sad
i just am

d.

The Adventures of Pissy and Shitty: "The Park"

Once upon a time there was a guy and a gal
the guy was shitty, the gal was pissy
on this one day they took a walk
they went to a local park for a nice walk
on such a beautiful day as it was turning summer out
this was their first walk together since meeting
pissy was ever so beautiful and lady like
shitty was in a bad mood
but
something was about to happen to change his mood
as pissy and shitty were
talking
walking
the mood began to change
then pissy said she had to piss
shitty showed her where the restroom was
but inside were the sounds of dirty park sex
the doors were locked
so pissy said she could wait
then as they continue to walk
and talk
pissy had to really go
it was almost another half mile to go
poor pissy
she tried to wait
shitty told her the next restroom is just up the bend
FINALLY
they found the other restroom for park walkers
OMG
LOCKED!
pissy was pissed
shitty was getting upset stomach
so pissy and shitty started walking
and pissy couldn't hold it any longer
and pissy did just as her names said
she pissed down her leg and her pants
shitty stood there in total disbelief
shitty walked fast as pissy went into the woods and hid
all shitty could do is hear pissy laughing so loud
shitty walked fast with pissy's purse
as the walker bys look at shitty
he felt sick from the heat and walking so fast
so shitty headed into the woods as well down the path
and he shit himself
oh no, pissy pissed, and shitty shitted his shorts
so shitty got back on the path
with the not so fresh feeling
trying to hurry to the car that was so far away
shitty got in the car very uncomfortable to sit after that
round the drive shitty came across pissy laughing still so hard
in the woods
pissy and shitty drove away laughing so hard
shitty went home and cleaned himself
pissy went home as well and cleaned herself
ahh freshness
a day they will never forget...