this is my reality, not yours

after seven months of being on my total own
i have come to terms with many things
most of all just who is "doug"?
and i have a lot more answers now than ever
my physical health
my mental health
my past, present, future
a lot has come full circle
making sense now
i turn 35 this year
and my gift is that i have shed yet another layer
taking me back about fifteen years
regrouping
rethinking
regrowing
reimagining
and here I am
i am returning home
my son reached out to me
first time ever
i have my reasons
judge me if you want
priorities have now changed
life is too short
i have become a better person
i have become independent
i no longer am a label of gay nor straight
i will know when the person comes along, male or female
life teaches you many things
and i have learned a lot on my total own this last year
i put my notice in at my good job
i will miss my job
i will miss my staff
i will miss the pay
but my health is a concern for my job
i have had been forced to move from my home
unable to find something in a short amount of time
putting my son back on top now that he reached out to me
i can return home and work on my physical health
and find comfort in finding a relief of somewhat
so i can heal
mentally
physically
and try to build a home with a new attitude
this is my journey
this is my decision
this is my path
this is my reality
not yours