isolated

alone in my room
filled with quietness
silence is golden
no one to talk to me
no one to bother me
no one to interrupt me
enjoying the ipod on
zoning out to another world
no need to be around others
enjoying my own company
becoming more independent
no more yearning for him
i am still living
no more just existing
goals are becoming achieved
past is become forgiving
present is becoming stable
future is looking bright
finally
i am all i have right now
all i need
not a club kidd anymore
no more smoke filled bars
tired of the energy wasted
of looking for this, that, etc.
when all the energy can be
refocused on more important things
and send the light out
and those things i long for
will be achievable just by living
doing what's right
sending off good karma
asking forgiveness for those i hurt
asking forgiveness for those i owe
in time, all gaps of dishonesty will be filled
and restoration of my character will be restored
then i will be loved again
for who i truly am
whom no one has ever really known
since i hid behind a facade for most of my life
so get ready
douglas is emerging at this time
step by step

d.