i know me better than anyone
i have come to terms with me
more than anyong else ever dared
i am at a time in my life where
i have become independent
and enjoy being alone
as I have been for so long now
along comes someone into my life
and has sparked some energy
but yet my physical and mental energy
is struggling to keep up with the demands
of everyday life with work, rest and
taking care of the trials of parenthood
taking care of my family
wanting to get on my own soon
get my car when i get the money
pay off the bills that are piling
yet still have time to breathe
time to spend with someone new
i know my body
i know my mind - i think
and i am afraid i will hurt someone
without even trying too
i am scared to let anyone in
as i have built this fort around me
and she is so special and so beautiful
but i feel like i just am not at a point
to fulfil her like a woman needs to be
someone help my physical pain
someone help my mental pain
someone help me
figure this all out
just one day at a time
i do know one thing is for sure
i am a good person
i have a huge heart
but my inner soul has been damaged
and repairing is not like using glue
maybe more time
maybe be alone forever
just pure exhaustion
both physically
and mentally
help
d.
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