(Let's) Finish What We Started

so you needed your space
so you needed your time
so you needed your mind clear
so you needed your life back

get up off your ass
show me what you got
throw the depression away
stop using your mind to confuse you
you know what you want
now go get it

you say you dont know you are
you say you dont know what to do
you say you dont know where you are
you say you dont know who you are
you say you dont know who you love

you had it all
you gave it up
are you happier
no

you had a big family
you gave it up
are you healthier
no

you had the perfect situation
but you felt out of sorts
and threw it all away
for what
nothing
nothing has changed

get up off your ass
and do something about it
make things happen for you
dont put pressures on yourself
just get up and do it

i want to hold you in my arms
cry out loud how much you are missed
but more importantly i just want to say
i am no longer the man that's pissed

you made your bed
you must lie in it
you hurt those you love they say
so what comes around goes around
you will always be loved
by the man you left

so let's finish what we started

P.S. I Love You

I miss your hugs.
I miss your kisses.
I miss your arm around me.
I miss my arm around you.
I miss our playful moments.
I miss our showers.
I miss our intimacy.
I miss watching you drive my car and we die. LOL
I miss just talking to you.
I miss seeing you.
I miss loving you - yet I will never stop.
I miss your help with Chase.
I miss you playing with Chase.
I miss our plans we would make together for the future and present.
I miss our hopes and dreams.
I miss your kids.
I miss my guidance to you to help you.
I miss listening to your stories.
I miss us laughing.
I miss your smile.
I miss everything.

Will it ever be the same?
Will it ever be given the chance in time?
Will you ever fall in love with me?
Will I ever heal from this?
Will these dark feelings I have disappear?
Will you be able to work your mind out?
Will my heart go on once glued together?
Will I wait for you (yes)?

You are my everything.
You accepted me for my body.
You accepted me for my pain.
You accepted me for my situation.
You accepted me for my imperfections.
You accepted me, for me.
No one ever has.
It took 34 years for my soul mate to find me.
Then within a blink of an eye - you vanished.

Please take the time you need to heal
from your past
from your inner mental health
from your family
from yourself
and maybe, just maybe
you will space in your heart for me again.

i love you

d.

I Love You (But I Am Not In Love With You)

love is such an amazing feeling
whether you are giving it
even better when receiving it
how a person loves differs
the emotions that take over
feelings that you can't control
especially hard when one loves
but others are not in love with you
you are left empty, lost, confused
unsure of what they truly ever felt
I never felt real love until recently
then in a blink of an eye it was gone
my heart has sunk deep within
pounding to every heart beat of life
wondering if I will ever find someone
a someone who will love me for me
like he did
a someone who accepted me
like he did
a someone who understood
like he did
a someone who is patient
like he was
i finally found my soulmate
i felt it the moment we met
but I must have been wrong
cause he didn't return the love
the way that I felt
I took myself away from ever being found
yet he found me
he woke my soul up
i felt alive and ready to live
instead of just existing as i have
but now that part of him is gone
if it was even ever there
and now i must regroup and regain
the strength i had built up before him
and put up a stronger wall so that
no one can enter my heart ever again
I wont give in to any man ever again
I cant handle the loss of a broken heart
when I dont know how to heal the one i have
he felt we rushed into something so fast
without giving him time to heal from his past
i understand that, I truly do
but what I could have given him
would have been the healing he needed
we must move on
he must move on
i must move on
once he is healed he will make someone so happy
i just am so saddened that it was not me
And then I told him "I love you"
and he replied, "but I am not in love with you"