Unloveable

Do people really even know how to love
how to receive the love they are given
Do we know how much we are really loved
or are some of us just so unloveable
thirty five years have passed me by thus far
exhausted from the running and fears
putting up this wall up so no one can
find me
like me
love me
be with me
I feel so unloveable by another human
no matter how much I want to love someone
I dont feel that I can be loved in returned
I tried to love, but ended, never been loved since
women or men; they seem to want one thing
and that is last on my list
as I just want to be loved and be loveable
but sometimes I wonder if this curse of darkness
prevents me being loved
so am i unloveable
or have i yet to shine in the heart of that special someone

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