it's like no one can hear me screaming for help
the constant baggage that arrives all the time
just bringing me down, pissing me more off than before
i mean damn
i am paying full price for misdeeds from my past
but give me a damn break
you say i am complaining, you can say i am bitching
but wouldn't you with all the shit i am dealing with
yes other people have it worse off
but it's my own support or lack of support
and my own "pity" as i was told
it's my unability to cope with all this
health is fucked
finances are dangling
i have chosen to live in a world alone
unwilling to let anyone in
who would want in
seriously
i am screaming out loud to the world
through my words, through my pity,
through my complaining and bitching
all i want is a hug
i want to see the light that i once saw before
it's all dark
no matter how hard i attempt to get it together
it just is beyond my control
when my health outdoes me
and the past is over
but i am paying the price on a daily dose
GRRR i want to scream and cry
but i am a mute with no tears
i can't make myself happy nor anyone else...
so fuck it!
d.
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