isolation

withdrawn and isolated
lost feelings and violated
never seeing the light
barely sleeping at night
racing thoughts run about
living again i feel a doubt
caring less for the world around
not even energy for the rebound
emptiness has taken over
fulfillment is nothing but a cover
dont want to even go on at times
this is payment for my past crimes
layers of my soul have been stripped away
no longer do i even feel a label of being gay
a wandering soul has been taken control
by the devil which i have become so cold
feelings of hoplessness
thoughts of helplessness
seems it will never end for me
climbing up this endless tree
only to find more hurdles ahead
but the waters so much to tread
dare i even say what my mind shares
thoughts scare me but who really cares
which path does my heart want go
looks like i just will keep with the flow

d.

Virtual Invisibility

time
distance
between us
you are so close
yet you are so far
how can i feel
the way i feel
when the hopes are gone
cause reality takes over
a broken heart
yet we never met
fingertip relationships
only bruise the heart more
why give in to that emotion
when we don't know the result
why take a risk only to lose
your heart is so simple
something i want in my life
more hurdles
more than i can handle
hoops and more hoops
tired of jumping
why break another heart
when i can't even feel yours
i've made this mistake before
in this online world of "love"
frustration takes over
instantaneously unavailable
you are there
i am here
we are nowhere
you are a dream
i am a nightmare
i am poison
dont touch me
you'll die
of a broken heart
goodbye